One year, seven months, one week and three days since our future child started growing in our hearts. (Oh no! This baby is gonna be giant!….. Sorry, bad joke. Weird mood.)
See above. Weird. This past few days have been full. Really full and super busy. Friday night our friends Alysha and Philip came over for pizza and a movie. Man Of Steel. Loved it! Saturday Josh and his dad went up to our family cabin and put up a new storage shed for firewood. Sunday, my parent’s and brother came to our house for a family celebration of my mom’s birthday. I made pot roast, carrots, potatoes, salad, and lemon blueberry white chocolate bars. Yum! We had a really nice evening talking and laughing. Today, unfortunately, I attended a funeral for my friend Renee’s father. I believe she is the first of my friends to lose a parent. It was too soon and he will be missed, but thank you Lord that he knew You! Renee and I have been friends since kindergarten. She’s the kind of friend I can go a long time without talking to and then one day just pick up where we left off. I hope she likes me as much as I like her cause she’s stuck with me. Pretty sure she does. I’d do pretty much anything for her. Then tonight Josh and I went and saw the new Thor. Creepy elves (like really creepy), I laughed quite a few times, very imaginative, I liked it! So overall, I’m feeling a bit….buzzy…if that’s a word. It’s gonna take me a while to wind down tonight.
Ugh. I’m so full right now. I feel like I ate the world over the last few days.
Thoughts about our child:
I think one of the things I look forward to most is just holding you. Feeling you breathe, your skin against mine, so still I can feel your heart beating. Peaceful. Calm. Safe. Happy.
Thoughts about our expectant mom:
If I’ve learned anything the last few days it’s that life moves fast. This part of your life, the part where you might be scared, confused, angry, sad, this won’t last. Rest in the knowledge that we want to give your child all the love we can. We want to know you. We want to love you both. Life will change and we will grow. God will give us the tools we need.
This week God:
Got louder. Have you ever had a week like that? Where a reoccurring theme seemed to jump out at you everywhere you go? Last week’s soft warm reminder that life is short got louder and sharper this week. Sometimes it feels like our child will never be home but really, this is just a breath. Our teaching leader at BSF Wednesday said something that has stuck with me all week. “True faith measures the cost of following Christ and finds it reasonable.” This wait is reasonable. We will wait on God’s plan. What’s more reasonable than the creation trusting the Creator?
“Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10
“My soul waits in silence for God only; From Him is my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken.” Psalms 62:1-2
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